I set a "due date" for my goal weight of 120!

Yes, a "due date" because I owe it to myself to get in shape and be the healthiest that I can be. During my weight-loss journey so far, I never set a "Goal Weight" date because I know stuff happens in life and my weight-loss journey could get side tracked or hit some bumps in the road. So I never wanted to be disappointed or discouraged by missing that date, BUT...
...now I think that's what's holding me back! I still understand that there are many up's and down's to losing the weight but I think I'm much stronger and able to handle it if I miss my goal because I know it's a matter of WHEN I hit goal, and not IF I hit goal. I am totally going to do it no matter how long it takes.

Anyway, I set my goal weight date to 09/17/09. That's exactly one year, to the day, since I decided to get back in shape. That's about 3.5 months from now, so I have a very ambitious goal of losing about 5.9 pounds a month or 1.31 pounds per week. I know it's totally doable once I tighten up my diet. And since I joined a gym this weekend with my boyfriend, I know the accountablity of the other members, my monthly fee, and the exercises classes will keep me on track. So let me explain abut the gym for a little bit.

I was always intimidated by the gym and totally believed that weight-loss does not need a gym membership (and I still believe this) but my friend joined and the deal was really good! It was no initiation fee, only $30 a month FOREVER (not just the first 6-months or something like that) and it gives me access to all the gyms in the state. And no cancellation fee so if I don't like it, I can just quite. I've lost 35 pounds on my own already, but I was getting "bored" with my exercise dvd's. I still really like P90X and CLX, but I think it was the "at-home" atmosphere that was getting to me.

I wish someone let me know about the gym before!

I was so scared to go on my first day, but once I got there and started on some of the cardio machines, I realized that no one was staring at me or talking about the "fat girl" running and there were people of all different shapes, sizes, and ages. After 2 minutes of being there, I felt completely comfortable... partly because I think I was in a lot better shape then some of the "skinny" people there thanks to P90X!!! I got on the treadmill and was able to run for a good half hour at about 5 - 5.5 miles! I felt so awesome! Yesterday I wanted to try the weight machines but once again, I was so scared! But my boyfriend just walked over and so I followed and once we got started... it was so much fun! I'm finally able to work my triceps really good without having elbow pain!

Anyway, today is my rest day but I'm going to the gym again because today I have my consultation. It should take about an hour and they take all your measurments and stats so I'm excited to do it. Will get back here to let you all know how I do.